[Chorus]Why am I so emotional?You know I hate to cryHate it as much as I do itHate it as much as you do itAnd why is it so horrifying toHear you scream?And who am I lying to?I wrote this scene you were just playingYeah we are just... playing[Verse 1]This is not a love songThis is a love letterJust played music in the backCause this way it reads betterThis is not artWhat I create is chaosIt ended dinasours era see?Just like Halsey and HeathersCard on each one of my handsThe queen of hearts and the jokerDecided to become friendsStarted betting heart at poker(Making a fool of myself)Beating heart when I ain’t soberAn alcoholic and doperCardiac arrest then it’s overDeath gets the soul higher quickerOf course I died in octoberRio corpse I’m getting closerDemons in each of my shouldersSell it to the higher bidderTrynna get ahold of lifeI just revived, joke is on youNow I’m back, stronger my talentDeath restored my mental balanceSet no store on my recoveryNow I adore life but soon will beWishing I’d die this bipolar meRelapses that’s three of Em’s CD’sNot into Raris and RoycesMy life has a bigger purposeNo Gucci slides but I slideIn your mind like I’m a porpoiseFor this I’m really sorryFor anybody I invited to my pity partyHate drama but can’t live without itYou’d think that once you hit rock bottomThere is only going upBut when you hit it twice a dayYou start to feel like giving upGetting back on your feetIs just as hard as growing upOr just as hard as the dickYou’re trynna throat and not throw up[Chorus]Why am I so emotional?You know I hate to cryHate it as much as I do itHate it as much as you do itAnd why is it so horrifying toHear you scream?And who am I lying to?I wrote this scene you were just playingYeah we are just...[Verse 2]Back to this love shit I amPlayed till I found you and thenFolded my hand just cause manThis was no longer a gameI was no longer a playerTapped into my deepest layerMardy bum like LSPBut couldn’t be on your radarYou PTSD like ex-soldierBut spirit free like a toddlerAnd you’re not Shrek but you wreckMy pussy like you’re an ogreAlways on LSD and vulgarSwallow your rain it ain’t purpleWe work together like clockworkMagical like out of HogwartsRolling this blunt I’m just kiddingAlready smoked it now feelingHigh as a feather but onceI get down I’m cruel as leatherBecauseThe higher the high, the lower the lowWhen no longer on dopeI lose all control, hate myself andWant to sabotage me as a wholeWon’t let me attach to anyone should be aloneTwenty One Pilots, I’m feeling like TylerCreator, suicidal but gaining hopeBit by bit, go and treat you like shitThen admit that I did, you should just move onBreak up with me pleaseDeserve better than this fucking crazy ass bitchBut please just know(Please just know)That even when it’s difficultYou never walk awayWhen I argue, when I hate youIs when I need for you to stayI go cry and you go creyCause don’t know what to fucking sayI’m so fucking broken babeI love you’s ain’t enough to mendAnd my heart is in the right placeBut my head’s on the wrong spaceAlready devoted all my faithCause a good omen to your graceAmen thank all of the godsThat crossed you into my wayWasn’t religious beforeNow you’re the god that I praise[Outro]Swear to love you on all the godsThough I know how useless that’d beSo I’m just swearing by youOnly god of my idolatryGet you up on my family treeI give my love and my life to theeFor freeAgree?
