Selfish Lyrics

The end is far away.

Not getting too much sleep these days.

These things I can't explain.

Just wishing for an early grave,

but they don't understand me.



I wanna be selfish.



Only reason I'm still alive,

Can't stand to see my mother cry.

I'll suffer through.

Only reason I won't die,

Can't stand the tears in her eyes.

I'll be home soon.



The saddest thing is,

it's the only thing that I want.

I wonder sometimes why

I don't just give up and take my life.

And they have no idea,

that I'm so close to my dying day.

I hate this feeling.

There's no healing.

There's no coming back from this hell.



(I wish that I could make you see)

(I wish that I could face today)



I want to be free from this.