Drowning Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Yeah, I wish I can numb this pain

I thought by now I won't complain

I got the cash with half the fame

Lost half my heart and kept the veins

We had our spark and lost our flame

I tried to talk, had none to say

I want the love, you never gave

Was hurting me your only aim

You shot my heart, I bled out hate

'Cause though you left, the trauma stayed

I wish the past, would go away

But I guess gotta live with it

Times changed, I don't feel different

Despite the hurdles in my life I kept my vision alive

I had no one on my side, yet I still did it

I'm missing thе old me, talking pre-deprеssion

Where I felt alive and I had a connection

Now I'm dead inside 'cause I lost my direction

I don't put my wall down for my own protection

And I'm tired of people using me

People lie, what do you believe?

I know people see the truth in me

And I know one day you will see

That being true was a tool for me

I be sticking to myself

I don't need nobody else

Just relief from this trauma that keeps on ruining me

'Cause lately I'm losing sleep

And nobody's getting through to me

It's 'cause it



[Chorus]

Feels like I'm losing sleep

I want my mind at ease

Feels like I'm losing me

I wanna find relief

Feels like I need to breath

I think I'm in too deep, now

I'm drowning in my thoughts

Drowning, by myself

I'm drowning, I need help

I'm drowning, they can't tell

I'm drowning, oh



[Verse 2]

I'm still here and still driven

People see me as a meal ticket

They get nothing, they can deal with it

I guess me and them were built different

I work for whatever I'm given

I been living inside of my room since I was fifteen

Making a bunch a songs hoping somebody gets me

I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening

When your expressing your pain and no one is listening

And life's hard to manage

I feel like I have a disadvantage

Since my childhood left me hella damaged

I don't know love because I never had it

Every relationship I'm in never lasted

Only toxic woman was all I attracted

I continuously fear having attachments

Honestly, it was really hard getting past it

But, it is what it is, you get what you give

I wish I learned quicker, look, I probably did

Just didn't accept it

Inside of my mind is where my demons roam

I try to hide 'cause they won't leave me alone

I overthink all of my mistakes on my own

I don't know where to go, it's 'cause it



[Chorus]

Feels like I'm losing sleep

I want my mind at ease

Feels like I'm losing me

I wanna find relief

Feels like I need to breath

I think I'm in too deep, now

I'm drowning in my thoughts

Drowning, by myself

I'm drowning, I need help

I'm drowning, they can't tell

I'm drowning, oh