[Chorus]I don't remember the first timeBut I think I survivedProbably better not to try to recall 'cause it feeds it, yeah it keeps it alive[Verse 1]There are specific thingsThat I have to doDay to day just to keep it at bayYou wouldn't believe if you knew([TOM:]Oh no, this isn't real)Oh no, this isn't real[Chorus]Here's a little secretHere's the best partThis is going to take meRight back to the startIf I can't hear itIf it's out of mindWait until it settlesComes round a second timeI don't remember the first timeBut I think I survivedProbably better not to try to recall 'cause it feeds it, yeah it keeps it alive[TOM:](Oh no...)[ALISA:](Yeah)[TOM:](This isn't real...)[Chorus]Here's a little secretHere's the best partThis is going to take meRight back to the startIf I can't hear itIf it's out of mindWait until it settlesComes round a second time[Verse 2]I can feel it loomUp into my headIt is in the roomPanicking in bedI feel it coming onTaking over viewOh please not tonightThere’s nothing I can do[Verse 3]This is bigger than meThis is in my fearThis is pitifulI just disappearSwells up all around meSwallowed up insideSell my senses ifIt would make this subside[Verse 4]I can barely handleI can pass the timeStaring through the curtainsUp into the skyWhere there is noDepth perceptionKeep preoccupied:Self deceptionNobody recognizesIt doesn’t have a nameMy brother is infected; he’s acting just the sameScreaming like a siren, up and down the hallHe just wants to stop itHe wants to end it all[Verse 5]I am just a childI have nothing moreThan the basic function I am running fromI curl up and wallowMy distortionEverything is disproportion[Verse 6]Suddenly I wakeAll is back againEverything is closerMorning is the sameAnd I can’t hear itIt’s way out of mindI will just forget this till the next time
