You still cross my mind from time to timeAnd I mostly smileStill so set on finding out where we went wrong and whySo I retrace our every step with an unsure penTrying to figure our what my head thinksBut my head just ain't what it used to beAnd then again, what's the point anywayI remember you ascending all the stairs up to the balconyTo see if you could see me hidden quietly awayAnd I remember the skin of your fingersThe spot three quarters up I'd always touch when I was out of things to sayYou held my hand but you were too afraid to speakYou were too afraid to speakAnd I could never understandI remember when you leaned in close to kiss meAnd I swear not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my handI remember how you smiled through the smoke in a quiet little coffeehouseAnd laughed at all my jokesAnd I remember the way that you dressedAnd how we wasted all the best of us in alcohol and sweatAnd I remember when I knew that you'd be leavingHow I barely kept up breathingAnd I bet if I had to do it all againI'd feel the same painAnd I remember panicked circles in the terminal in tearsHow I wept to God in fitsI've hated airports ever sinceIt must be true what people sayThat only time can heal the painAnd every single day I feel it fade away butI still remember how the distance tricked usAnd led us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devouredI still remember how we held so strong to thisThough we had never really settled on a way outI still remember the silenceAnd how we'd always find a way to turn and run to our mistakesI still remember how it all came back togetherJust to fall apart againMy dear, I hear your voice in mineI've been alone hereI've been alone hereI've been afraid, my dearI've been afraid, my dearI've been at home hereYou've been away for yearsI've been aloneI've been aloneI've been aloneI've been aloneI breathed your name into the airI etched your name into meI felt my anger swellingI swam into its seaI held your name inside my heartBut it got buried in my fearIt tore the wiring of my brainI did my best to keep it clearSo dear, no matter how we partI hold you sweetly in my headAnd if I do miss a part of you, a part of me is deadIf I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friendAnd I will lay a bed before youKeep you safe until the end
