It's like, the more I try, the less I feelIn desperate need of something realWhy, lately I ain't been the same?I try so hard to hide this painI search, but I can't ever findCan't seem to leave my past behindCause all the ones I hope would stayAre all the ones that fade awayTruth is I think about you oftenI miss your voice, I miss your smile that I used to get lost inI know you know I have this thing for you, I never lost itI think I just lost myself, in the midst of the non-sense9 times out of 10, I'd close my eyes and dream about youDon't know what it was, but you just had this thing about youLately we've been distant, see, I just can't be without youAnd my soul got so attached to yours, I can't be me without youBut, we hate ourselves because we run from the people we loveAnd we all hold on to the past 'cause we miss what it wasDon't wanna feel so we try to numbin' the pain with these drugsLiving in hell, 'cause we lost faith in the place up aboveAnd my anxiety is breaking me, it kills meI'm living in a world so fake, I lost touch of the real meHad to take a look back, just to ask me if I'm still meAnd would I still stand for this if they wanted to kill me?I can't take it no more, I just can't take it no moreI can't smile like I'm okay, I just can't fake it no moreI can't act like I've been happy and complacent no moreCause every time I try to change, it is the same as beforeMy karma is coming, my karma is coming, it's weighting inI'm drinking 'till all my feelings just fade away againAnd mama, she always told me "this ain't the way to live"But, when you feel what I'm feeling that's just the way it isI'm trying not to break down but I just can't hide this painSaw myself in the mirror and I'm just not the sameBut who's to blame? I guess we all changeWe hurt the ones we love because of our pain (fuck)It's like, the more I try, the less I feelIn desperate need of something realWhy, lately I ain't been the same?I try so hard to hide this painI search, but I can't ever findCan't seem to leave my past behindCause all the ones I hope would stayAre all the ones that fade awayAre all the ones that fade awayAre all the ones that fade away
