[Verse 1]Drink til I'm dead, toast to my lifeForget about it all in the processHolding my breath, cold for the nightDifficult to know what the cost isCall it what you wantTell me that I'm fucked upTell me that I'm wrong, that I'm rightTell me that I lost touchTell me that I'm like himTell me that I'm down for the fightWould anybody care if I woke upThought a new day might feel differentEveryone's stripped down, coked upThought it might be real, but it isn'tMy mind it goes to the darkest placesI've got so much to love, sometimes I fucking hate it[Hook]First I felt faded, then it got loudNext I was wasted, then I blacked outSaid damn, gotta get soberBut it always starts right overFirst I felt faded, then it got loudNext I was wasted, then I blacked outNot who I seem, I mean likeI've been doing bad things, bad things, yeahI've been having bad dreams, bad dreams, yeah[Verse 2]Scared that I'll fail, knees in the dirtCalling up somebody that I don't loveWeaving all my sad tales, even if it hurtsSee the beast well it always seems to show upCall it what you wantTell me that I'm worthlessTell me that I'm hype, that I'll blow upTell me I'm a fucked up personTell me every night that I'm spending on a sofaLooking way back in the archives, locate the linkCause I went straight from the hard timesTo spitting in a kitchen sinkMy mind it goes to the darkest placesI've got so much to love, sometimes I fucking hate it[Hook]First I felt faded, then it got loudNext I was wasted, then I blacked outSaid damn, gotta get soberBut it always starts right overFirst I felt faded, then it got loudNext I was wasted, then I blacked outNot who I seem, I mean likeI've been doing bad things, bad things, yeahI've been having bad dreams, bad dreams, yeah[Verse 3]Wish I could steal every moment that I lovedKeep it in a safe placeCause I can't deal with the stress of the lifestyleOr the way you're looking in my faceAnd I wanna get away from it allBut I'm drawn right back, moth to the flameEverything's better than it's ever been but I'm worse for the wearYeah it's hard to explainI want a new name & a little bit of something that I ain't gotI want it two ways, like to kill all of my pain with the same shotI'll be alone forever in my headDot my I's til they fill me outI'll be alone forever in my bedWith a twisted smile and a filthy mouth[Hook]I mean likeI've been doing bad things, bad thingsI've been having bad dreams, bad dreams
